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I Am...

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Avarreth

Published: Jan 18, 2013

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I am an observer,
I watch as you fall
and I won't make a move
to answer your call.
I am dishonest,
it has been since my smallest years
that I let my truth into others ears.

I am a composer,
of a great many lies
yet carry luck like a clover
I never break my disguise.

Through those heat filled faces surrounding me
I can just barely see
and sometimes I find nowhere to run
they take over me.
I am rarely awake with sun,
so that when everything slips undone,
I will not be exposed
I will always stay composed.

I keep my secrets like stars keep distance
burning bright beneath my skin
defining my existence
out of reach and filled with sin.

Never trust a word I say,
I lie to everyone every day
and this is the only time
I will admit
that I am unlike you in many ways.

Who I am is just this: a secret to hold
and I will show no one
no matter how bold.

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Assignment for English that I may or may not read out loud. I might make a better one I like more >_<
Stupid teacher, why u ask me to define myself when myself avoids doing exactly that